08.28.2025

Within my creative practice, I feel a bit divided.. there's so many different mediums I love and currently explore.
And some of those mediums aren't fully accepted by some of the communities i'm a part of. I've been thinking a lot about this and trying not to let it stand in the way of it all.

I'm going to pour some more time into neocities because it feels like a slower pace of a space to create and explore in... but at the same time I can make all of the other social platforms i'm in the same way.
cheers, I'm also going to create another page called the dopamine journal.. this is a shorter way of journaling that I will come into daily.

08.04.2025

I've carved out such a life for myself, that i'm able to do a lot of the things I've always wanted to do.
Yet, it's crazy the grip that comparison has on me at times. I spent some time looking at stuff other creatives are working on or creating (and I know the grass isn't always greener but hey it's my blog) and I can't help but to feel a little upset sometimes.
I'm realizing that I need to carve out the time to explore the things I want to do and not be so focused on certain client work etc.
Sometimes the projects I explore tho, do def take almost everything out of me.. but I'm also realizing I'm not taking care of my physical health as well as I should be if I want to operate at this level.
I'm thinking of starting a small project on here where I just document each day for improvement... there's a few books I want to finish reading and I want to create a small media page on here as well.

Going through the motions with some social relationships.. and I'm grateful for all of the folks that view me as a friend.
Sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming to be honest. Lol I grew up as an only child and mostly hung out on the web.
It's pretty new to me to have so many people in my life want to spend time with me in person.
And I'm positive I'll figure this all out, I mean I totally have to if I want to keep living a concious life.
Art uploads coming here soon..

07.27.2025

Currently sitting down at the airport, after visiting my parents for 2 days. One thing that is so true about the spiritual journey is, if you think you've really grown go visit your family. My parents are getting older, and I can still notice some of the unconcious patterns that have developed within their relationship.
It's a tough one to swallow to be honest, especially with my nieces taking the brunt of it all.
I can see a lot of the patterns that have been passed over to my older sister as well, and it has me looking inward on how I process all of this and how it shows up in the world.
There's also a feeling of learning how to be more present with them.. especially as i'm watching them go through their own journey with their own parents getting older. Dealing with the elderly is pretty tough, and I'm not sure how ready I am right now.
But having this thought makes me realize it's time to start taking of myself and learning how to deal with grief and loss in a healthy way.

07.27.2025

hey, i changed some things up after re-doing the site once again , I wanted it all to be a bit more free flowing and less rigid. so I went with a simple design to avoid any sort of distraction with the content being the thing that matters.. it's kinda all moving a bit more forward into a journal format or w.e comes to mind while i'm sitting here updating the site.